v-ivacious

Finally.

2010-09-27T06:24:00.000-07:00

M O V E D

http://thesmoketomyhigh.blogspot.com/

You suck cock.

2010-09-25T02:37:00.000-07:00

Hi whatever fcuk i've been through its ME who feels the pain. Not the fcuking YOU.

So lemme say this for my own good, i do stuff that makes me make illegal legal i don't care as long as IM HAPPY. So you don't come to my formspring and say those stuff to me. I HAVE MY LIMITS MIND YOU. Thanks.

Where money flows like river :)

2010-09-23T06:11:00.000-07:00

Enjoying my tipsy weekends with my girls. I don't think i need a man for now, i'll just wait for him.

Love my girlfriends.

Just plain old stupid in love,

2010-09-16T05:03:00.000-07:00

Dear you, Theres times i hate you like crazy cause you hurt me so bad. Idk why idk how upon hearing your voice suddenly im so forgiving and i realise i miss you so freaking much! Don't this sound stupid? Other girls might have already move on. Hais. For once i ask you to do me a favour atleast appriciate me will ya? Mr. Chivalrous presence make me realise i deserve better, i felt love, i felt appriciated, i am happy. I tried to atleast fall for him, but i still it was you whom i loved more. I need a freaking wish right now. Xoxo.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

It's amazing how someone can break your heart, but you still love them with all the little pieces.

2010-09-09T03:05:00.000-07:00

Hi. Its been quite sometime since i last update. Hehe. Anyone miss me? :)

Lately, me and my girls been through hardships. Different stories same misery, Love.

But i proudly say both of my girls somehow manage to pull of courage and manage to move on, but here i am still stuck. Hais, don't bother asking me why... Cause its something very personal... Only closest friends knows. And i won't lie, i miss you. Who you? Ekal.
Other than that, i wanna thank god cause im actually enjoying my life right now. HAHA!

"My friends are always telling me to move on, to give up. But why? Why should I? They don't see you the way that I see you. They don't look into your eyes and see the world. Why would they understand? They can't possibly imagine what it means to look at your best friend and see all their hopes and dreams come true. I wish for once, just once, they could walk a mile in my shoes. But they wouldn't need to walk that far, they would just take one step and suddenly, they would take back every bit of 'getting over you' advice they had ever given me and realize you're my life, you were meant for me, and that moving on or giving up is simply not an option." -To you.

Learn from mistakes, that's part of life.

2010-08-24T04:02:00.000-07:00

I'll do whatever just to kiss your lips again.

Breath love give hopes

2010-08-12T03:56:00.000-07:00

There's times i knew you're taking me for granted. But then do you ever ask your fcuking self WHY i stood there like an idiot even till now i am? Am stuck in the moment of time, holding on to the memories we had just for the sake to keep this relationship alive? Cause i believe what we had is for real.

Like we used to :'(

2010-08-07T14:17:00.000-07:00

The friends that been there from then till now.

MISSES.

Me missy you.

2010-08-01T03:03:00.000-07:00

Hi M o f o s!

Some life's lesson i learnt.

Dont judge a someone by what was told or heard. The person might be wrong or just taking that moment as an advantage to give that someone a bad name. Judge a someone base on your own impression of she or him.

Never depend on anyone (except mum for money, haha!)

Think positive always!

Its not the 'how long' question that makes a friendship a worth cherish one. Its the 'how the person make you feel' makes a friendship worth a lifetime! I love my girlfiesss!!

Saibong's MANGO DAY AT SCHOOL!

so I'ma let the beat rock..

2010-07-26T01:17:00.000-07:00

Used to be a little girl, how i wish i could be that again, young and innocent, no worries at all i was happy

Boo! Miss me? Cakap tak! Heh heh. I know, i know. My blog been dead eversince

i've created fb. Boohoo to me! Hahaha. Nothing interesting to update, but shall just do an update about my progress lately.

Let's start with school... Okay, aisyah will always be aisyah. Lazy for school. I will never learn my lesson. Hahaha. Malay O'level is over! (Y) Few more months to endure and i'll be free like again! English, maths, science and combine humanities (SS and geog.) Actually theres no difference with being free nd still schooling at the same time cause still i've been partying and enjoying myself :) But one thing for sure, i know i can't score well for my O'level papers. I know my limits so... just see how bad it will be. Im ready for mama's dissapointment and i must come up with a back up plan for future. Blablabla. Having maths tuition now maybe la kan will help me improve my maths. HOPE SO! Wish me all the best!

I miss boyfriend. I know i've been posting alot about him, but wtd can't help it. Just feel like telling everbody or likely shout this "I MISS MY BOYFRIEND SO FREAKING BADDD!!" hehe. Guess he miss me too. Our love letters say it all <3 If everyone thinks that waiting is easy, well NO! You must deal with envied people whom will definetely take this chance to badmouth about you, telling around stories that were never true. Report this and that and yknw what?! DON'T TRUST ANYONE YOU DON'T REALLY KNOW (even your bf's friends) not all of them are 'nice' some are just two headed hypocrites :) I've learn my lesson so here i am, being independent and leaving everything to faith. After all i know whatever gonna happen my family and girlfriends will be there. Even so, my boyfriend trust me. Okay whatever, imy bf :(

My relationship with mama has improve tremendously for the past months. I've began to understand the definition of bonding. Felt the love that i've once logging for. There she was wiping my tears, there she was whipping me up a meal even tho she was tired... I know which mother hadnt done that for their child, but this is when i just realise i've been taking her for granted. Mama knows ive been smoking, clubbing and stuff and i know im lucky to have an understanding mum unlike some unlucky people... So now i've been trying to get hold of my temper and be a goodgood daughter. Love you mama.

Another most in my want-list :-

Start to patch up every gap in between me and ayah. Ok maybe shall start a convo with him.

with this i'll end this post with lots of love !!

I likey when my life was so perfect 3 years back.

2010-07-15T00:43:00.000-07:00

I deserve to be happy don't i? But why the hell some people are making my life difficult?

Im asking this cause i need an answer. I miss my bf and been missing him like badly.
AND PEOPLE PLEASE MAKE MY LIFE EASY AS POSSIBLE SO STAY AWAY OFF MY LIFE :)

Out of boredom.

2010-06-21T18:06:00.000-07:00

You’re not allowed to lie, OK?
Okay bitch. I try

Did anyone hurt you in the past couple days?
Don't think so. Do i? Tell me, tell me! Hee.

Who was the last girl that called you?
Lina.

Does she mean anything to you?
She's my bestfriend <33

Have you had sex today?
-.-" No.

Do you still care about your last ex?
No.

Look in your call log, who was your last phone call from?
Lina.

If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
Yes for sure.

Does anything on your body hurt right now?
My neck. URGH~

Do you believe love can last forever?
I leave it to fate not expecting forever.

Has anyone had there hand in your pants today?
NOOOOOOOOOOOO!

What should you be doing right now?
Catch the first bus and GO HOME!

What’s bothering you?
My new facebook only has like 10 pictures!

Do you own more then one bathing suit?
Yes.

Do you have siblings?
Brother.

Last person you talked to in person?
Kerraline.

Do you think someone’s thinking about you?
Ekal?

What made you the happiest today?
Food!

Are you happy with how life is going for you?
No. FML

Is there anyone in particular that you’re missing right now?
YESYES AND YES! E-K-A-L!!

In the last 6 months can you say you truly cared about someone?
Boyfriend.

Are you happier now than you were five months ago?
No.I was happy back then!

Name of your favorite color?
Pink, blue and black.

When’s the last time you were outside in the rain?
Drizziling. Today.

Do you have feelings for someone?
Stupid qs!

What is your hair looking like right now?
Messy ponytail.

Have you ever been to a Britney Spears concert?
Nope.

Did you sleep alone last night?
Yes :(

Is tomorrow gonna be a good day?
Yes, gonna kill zombies!

Are you dating the last person you kissed?
Yes!

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
Yes. but nvm.

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn’t be?
HAHA! YES!

What’s on your bed right now?
Im not at home.

Are you looking forward to something as of right now?
Yes.

Ever been called babe/baby?
Yes.

Say you were given an alcohol test right now, would you pass?
Yes!

Have you ever kissed the last person you talked to on the phone?
Lina? Yes!

Today did you see ‘that someone’ that makes you happy?
No.

Who do you hug everyday?
Ekal's hoodies >.<

Do you like tight or loose clothes better?
Tight,feeling-feeling sexy. hahaha

What clothing style do you like on the opposite sex?
Neat and not typical

Are you on a laptop?
No.

Do you text more girls, or guys?
Girls... -.-"

Would you consider yourself good looking?
Haha. Cute can? :P

Who is your best guy friend?
Fiqq.

Who is your last text from?
Andy bitch.

Favourite clothing store?
Anything.

What colour is your hair?
Brownish-red?

Why aren’t you dating the person you like?
How am i suppose to? Dier pat mane bro.

If you could visit anywhere, where would you go and why?
DRC!

What’s your favourite band?
ST12.

Do you have a formspring?
Yeahhhhhhhhh, i do!

What would you say is your best feature?
My eyelashes! hehehhe

Favorite movie?
Prince of persia.

How much £££ do you have?
$2! hahaha

Are you a vegetarian?
Nope, im a seafooddddholic!

Favourite place to be?
Around my bitches and dickies!

Do you get good grades?
Never sey :(

Playing the field, or serious relationship?
Serious relationship.

Do you like flirting?
HEHE. A little.

What do you hear right now?
Kerraline saying "Aaahh, can already"

Favourite sport to watch?
NEVER EVER LIKE THEM

Do you ever read the ingredients on food labels?
Yes!

Do you like Paramore?
Hmmm ...

How about Twilight?
Yes very sexy

Justin Bieber?
He sucks!

Are you manipulative?
Can la.

Sexiest thing on the opposite sex?
Abbs and dimples.... hahahaha

Meanest thing someone’s ever done to you?
Skip this one..

Would you rather have one best friend or surrounded by acquaintances?
Mostly by bestfriend.

What kind of phone do you have?
Samsung pixon.

What kind of phone do you want?
Iphone 4 or samsung pxon12

When’s your birthday?
0606

Do you like Classic Rock?
Sometimes.

Rap?
Not really.

Are you gay?
No.

Some random person comes up and tells you you’re sexy, you say?
HAHA. merepek.

Favorite candy?
Sour power!

Hot face or hot body?
Hot face! Pleaseee!

Ever been hit on by someone older?
Yesssssssssssssssssssssssssss!

What state were you born in?
Singapore :)

Long or short hair?
Mine is long, p/s : extentions! hehe

Tough Love :')

2010-06-21T15:26:00.000-07:00

Wish it wasnt so hard, but its okay im halfway through it!! Yay i suppose? :')

Boyfriend, boyfriend i miss you!

2010-06-18T07:52:00.000-07:00

Hi Ekal. How have you been? Your girlfriend here is missing you like almost everyday.

Come home soon, nak hughug kisskiss! xoxo!

Yo! Motherfxckerzx

2010-06-10T10:52:00.000-07:00

Yo! How's your day has been brother?! Quick... Ask me! Ask me! Hehe. MINE WAS GREATTTT!

Now at fidd's crib, FREE FLOW of food! Idk what's the real occasion but then happy tummy sey^^ Twinny is on the other computer, i guess she's also updating her blog... while the boys are playing monopoly. Hmm~ Today went to work after a few weeks M.I.A-ing! hehe. And andy was supposed to fetch me by car but then was cancelled pasal kakak pet jual mahal siket :P heh heh. Takpe, tmr mayb! Yay! He's sleeping now.... adoi. K la, jap lagi nak join uh nak sleep jap. Nantokzxzx~ Formspring i sonsang sey, how ni? Grr...

Currently chatting with rian. spadey, beybey and a unknown girl in a single convo. GTG :)

Im not offended by any criticism

2010-06-07T02:34:00.000-07:00

The one thing we can never get enough of is love. And the one thing we can never give enough of is love.
I miss boyfriend. Cant wait till june end....

Been spending most of my time with this bitch.

My 17th Baby

2010-06-06T15:12:00.000-07:00

Thanks for those great advance and official day celebration my dear friends and mama! Love you :)

Let me begin with, On the 4th went to music world pub with all time bestie, Lina Sweetheart for two glasses just for the tipsy state before heading to Howl at the moon. Did not exactly enjoy myself there.. Hmm.. But with Lina everything was made purrrrfectly fun! After club, went back to meet Kecik, Andy, Daniel the bartender and bonzer of music world. They brought me to club Ace, located near Chimes. There where the real party begins.... Free flow of liquor and the best thing was ANDY AND DANIEL ON THE HOUSEEEE!!! Free bro! Happy nye. I was challeged by andy who can drag the most and guess what i won^^!! Hahaha. At the end, NOT the birthday girl tau yang mabok daniel yang songsang! Hahha. Andy wasnt happy that im not drunk :P Cabbed home. kecik and lina being sweet send me home sampai kat lift oi. Lovelove korg la :) Sentence of the night, Thanks eh korang! hahhahaa.

Fyi, wore heels for the very first time to club! wee!

5th, saturday night. Nude lips on my birthday! Bought myself a bottle of chivas. Meet wan itek and friends. Bullied some of them to carry my baby chivas since it was heavy. Wan treated me sheesha!! Nyettsss~ Thanks dewi's baby itek! Around 10 feeling-feeling star karat datang town meet my happy peoples. Monyet being on irritating freak shouted "Niari birthday sepet!" Then sang me a birthday song loudly! *MALU* . Went to taka waited till 12am then.... BOTTLES UP! Wooo~ Smue perangai monyet battery. Heh heh. Overall did have fun till the police came. Bleah spoiler! Blablabla... What suck was at the skate park! 15 mosquito bites on one of my palm sumpah buley chronic sia tuh macam! Aiya...

Today, firstly dewi and me spend my whole birthday SLEEPING!~ Then around 6pm, went to pasar malam with her bought some food and head to her crib. Midnight, met palito, fyda and friends at downtown. Palito bought me and fyda a mini oreo cheesecake for each me and fyda as present. Sweet kan ituh gala? hehe. Dier juga belanje smue orang lan game di elias. Sap, sap, sap.... went car riding. And now preparing myself to sleep. ATLAST!

With this, hugs and kisses for everyone whom mde this year's special^^

You people made me happy eventhough honestly im quite down with ekal absence on my birthday.

Just hope next year i get to celebrate it with ekal :')

Happy 18th To My Kakak Johnson! Adik Fattymah Loves You Muchmuch!

xoxoxo.

Got to go dewi is sleeping on the sofa, sweet sey dier tgu aku nak tdu sesame! hehe.

Dramatic changes

2010-05-27T10:06:00.000-07:00

M i s s i n g y o u : ' (

Udang tengok mirror :B

2010-05-25T01:44:00.000-07:00

EH HI ! :)

Just a heavily pictures post.

Officially red headed. AGAIN. (Now its 2 shades darker than in picture)

Candid.

Kecik (ekal's brother) and twinny love.

Zoom in of fyda's cb face. HAHAHAHAHA!

Fyda's lil monkey :) Mintak kene rembat kan?!

HEHEHEHE!!

Movie date with dewi. The Last Song.

Tengok sblh dewi, cute kan ryan! heh heh.

Time ni ego couple in good terms!

Hi. Jangan la merajok ngan aku lagi :( hehehe!

SHUT UP! Jangan comment.

@ CGH visiting ayrah's mum.

The mango salad that i love.

Cutestuff food -.-

workplace :)

Dewi's fav picture. Idk why

Rian mabok perangai keling! hehehehe. Jangan mara yer :P

The joker, monyet :)

Spadey nak rogol mcmuffin dier!

Tom si orang kaye baru.

K BYE !

New.

2010-05-15T10:13:00.000-07:00

Just made a formspring account bitches and dickies :)

Ask me anything.

bitterness does not make you bullet-proof. It just poisons what's left

2010-05-13T19:42:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you just have to put on a fake smile even if it hurts you so.

Bear with the pain and just gamble with the game :)

will update more soon. luplup you~

I dont hate people, but i just feel better when they are not around.

2010-05-04T00:07:00.000-07:00

secret admire break with ekal n b wif me. ekal is such a loser.inside n wt cn he do fer u?

Theres things that you bitch people wont understand. From why i choose to hold on and why him that i love.

"The greatest pleasure in life is in doing what people say you cannot do." Never better said.

Im gonna prove you bitches wrong. I given alot in this relationship and i never want it to be a waste just because of some mistakes that he had done. No relationship is ever perfect. There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater.. The love we had for each other is bigger than these small differences. Love can make up for alot. I leave it to fate .. and fcuk you for calling ekal a loser! everybody make mistakes!

There is always some madness in love

2010-05-02T06:23:00.000-07:00

Happy advance 10th Monthsary^^

Tired of spending my nights in solitude. I just miss you, ill be here for you at the end of the day.

Pretty awesome pictures taken from my useless 3.2 megapixel fone.

tag replies

S°Chaeyoung♥: hello aisyah, passing by goodluck in you trying achieving ur goals! -Thank you very much!

Guest: **** -????

Guest: love you -who are you?

deeyana.: pet. i tried to text you tapo tak dpt. tukar numb eh? - yup. ive changed my number.

PSB: LAWA LAH BBY YOU ! (: - thanks *kembang*

PSB: BIBIR MICHAEL JACKSON ! - Is that suspose to be a compliment or what?

puterikuching: hello i change my link .ok , kiki tahu kiki lom link sepet but soon . hehe tak abes2 nan soon aku . heee -Done relinking you.

Guest: hey,i read your post bout ur weight which u link it to kim.k body. no 1 is perfect.jus learn to luv urself,luv ur body.self-hatred will lead u to depression. btw,kim.k so called "perfect" boobs&butts are fake!sugery can make u look hot&almost perfect bt wats the use if all u've is simply fake, rite? infact,by having botox butt&all is jus embarassing.public will look dwn on u cz by doing surgery it shows tat u did not appreciate wat god has given u. natural is the best beauty. so,nw wuld u still wanna envy a women hu is xtremely fake? jus love urself & b thankful tat u're born as a normal girl. atleast ur nt retarded,or low iq. ur very cute&pretty actualy. jus remember tat no 1 is perfect,apreciate wat u hv before its too late,ok?btw, sorry if u tink im bz body. im jus trying to give u advice&im sincere bout tis. no hard feelings,ok? tcre - Thank you for your advise dear caring passerby.

Lynnastro: pet . link lynn k ! taqare preety ! -sure you too. tc.

Guest: syg, ur seluar hitam where u beli? - slua hitam yang mane?

M.: hey, read your post. do not buy the mass gainer drink. i bought it but its of no use so dont waste. you might wanna try the link that i gave you. (: -Really? haiyaaaaaaaa. Okay la thanks anw.

Missing you.

2010-04-25T05:22:00.001-07:00

Miss me when im gone. Have no time to update. Sorry.

Just follow me via twitter :)

I Love My Twinny.

xoxo.

Hanya aku pinta

2010-04-19T22:54:00.000-07:00

Hey babies. If you were following me on twitter you may read about how self concious am i about my weight.Well tried drinking more water, sleep more and now saving up money to buy myself a mass gainer drink. 86bucks! cekik darah doh! I dont wanna be aneroxic and im not one of them to be exact! Kim kardashian's body has always been my "idol". Hehe. Im gonna try my best to achieve it (although i know i wont be able), might say im desprate to gain weight! Any ideas? Suggestions?

She's just perfect. AM JEALOUS -.-"

And to the hate tagger to my blog about my friend Fyda.

FUUUUCKKK YOU!

Tag replies.

Guest you working as? - receptionist.

paserby do you use clip extensions? if yes, how much dhn? - braiding. 140$

passerby supp!!! intro? - fcuk you!

hyn pet maner ko for da past two daes..kiter rindu ko nyer suare n laughters..hope to c u on mondae... - hii hyn aku pt sblh kau ni

anon hey,where did you curl your hair at? and what kind of curl did you do? - hair curler.

Zizie Eh pet, kao keje ape? - receptionist

daily reader babe, can i noe how much u paid for piercing eyebrow? and where u pierce at? - my friend pierced it for me

vinadianasari hello(:just a passerby.i think youre gorgeous^^tagged. - thanks passerby

raudhah Pet, relink (: Thanks - sure.

eina hey may i know where did u get your 3/4 jeans from? - its my friends'

cheha evento u were at the same "box" w me at taka, i still malu2 n segan to approach u. kental kan seha? hehe. Pet cute in person! (; - its okay. i olso sama. haha. there will be a next time ni mesti mau pekik "HI CHEHA!" hahaha. And anw you're preety! see you.

FYDA You're hell one of a stalker Lina. Ooh-la-la! - agreed with kakak johnson!

We are no longer happy as soon as we wish to be happier

2010-04-15T03:12:00.000-07:00

Hi. Back again for a quick update.

Recently im back to my oldself always giving school a miss. I'd yell at mum and not listen to her. Always feeling that she was a nag. But after nightfall, i kinda regret it. Being me ,egoistic me ive yet to apologise. Other than that, work days has been very flexible. 3days per week. (Y) Ive switched to perpaid, i hate it cause i cant check how long my bus will arrive (iris) ,must limit my text msges and I JUST HATE IT LA. And because of something ive just lost contact with a good guy-friend of mine. Means no fiq = no night fonecalls + no tempat mengadu. Great or what?! Fcuk ya attitude my dear friend.

I love kerraline, yayah and fyda v much. Daily dosage ill say.

Overdue pictures ;

Saturday nights ,

Girlfriend (+man) outing ,

Troublemaker's pit ,

If youre one of fyda's reader you sure will read about how she accompany me to find the perfect salon to dye my hair.

The result, NO DIFFERRNCES IN MY HAIR COLOUR! CB! I think i choose the wrong shade.

I miss you. I love my Rascanova's besttttttttttt!

Hello bitch-loveee

2010-04-06T00:23:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the absence, too carried away with life. School, work and moneyyy!

Pay day has arrived and double the yay gonna shopshopshoppp. $$$. Bleah~

Old pictures (From my web album) thank god they're still here.

Still Rascanova's Sweetheart at heart :)

I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand

I don't tell anyone about the things that we have planned
Won't tell anybody, won't tell anybody

They want to push me down

They want to see you fall down

Won't tell anybody how you turn my world around

I won't tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound

Won't tell anybody, won't tell anybody

They want to see us fall they want to see us fall

Happy belated 9th monthsary

And I miss my bitch, Linabey.

Hehe. You can laugh now. Bleah~

xoxo. Love you people. Brb.

My Kind Of Drug.

2010-03-21T05:52:00.000-07:00

Love is an addiction. Much more addictive than crystal methamphetamines or ecstacy.

Unwanted Heartbreaks, cloud 9, speeding in heart rate and some trust and lies games are it's immediate effects. But for me, i looove my drug (E.R.) and i keep coming back for more.
I miss you sweetheart.

gonna be away. xoxo.

Money is comingg baybeh!

2010-03-16T23:46:00.000-07:00

“Endurance is one of the most difficult disciplines, but it is to the one who endures that the final victory comes.”

Hi Readers^^ Gonna be away for atleast some solid weeks, since my lappy had broken down and am now busy with my tight schedule. Schooling and working at the same time. When i think i had enough of feeling-feeling independent i will stop for sure. Atleast now im happy that im doing something legal and keeping myself occupy everyday. Im soooo gonna shop till i drop! GAGAGAGA! I miss my boyfriend, ive endured this far and im not giving up no matter how fcukers tried their best. So yah, im still holding on fcukady! Im so jealous that my co-workers some are married and soon to be married. Bleah~ Since im gonna be away, just tag me or follow me via twitter. Xoxo.

a weary wait

2010-03-07T01:07:00.000-08:00

Been busy lately, that's explain why i missed a few days of blogging. Tons of pictures but being me im olways plain old lazy^^ I miss my boyfriend more than anything ,crymate have been listening to my whines and sobs every night soon she will get bored of it. HAHA! I love kerraline and yayah. I will be mentally disable if one day someone will take them away from me. Didos and fid ,please dont get yourself into trouble anymore.

Lastly ,love you people dearly :)

Am lovesick

2010-03-04T07:06:00.000-08:00

L4D2 after school ,first time trying and ol so kanchong. Touch up my hair extensions. Starting maths tuition next thursday ,am happy! Deactivated my facebook. Down with a flu. Been emotional lately FML love kerraline ,fyda ,fiqo ,fiqq ,yayah ,man and schmates they been there for me. bye

Im so confuse

2010-03-03T00:00:00.000-08:00

Happy 8th monthsary, i love you love ^^

God's greatest gift and ive learn to embrace everything that come our way. haha! fcuk you people

Straighten up little soldier

2010-03-01T11:02:00.000-08:00

But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is,
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep

Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream -(lyrics)

Extensions

2010-02-28T09:42:00.000-08:00

Did extensions to my hair ,not happy need moreee! Dyed it black ,not exactly jet black as wanted. Thank you mama fo the treat. Ly!

My superhuman

2010-02-28T09:26:00.000-08:00

This afternoon i was in the bus (alone) realised something ... now i have this habit of bitting my lips.

And i asked myself why am i "copying" baby's habit? Let me just put it in words " I JUST MISS HIM "

Love

2010-02-27T00:53:00.001-08:00

a thug who tells his mother he's gonna marry his goonette is a sweetheart . a thug who tells his gf's mother tht he's gonna marry the daughter is a hero . a thug who tells his homies about his goonette that , he's gonna make her his everything is the most faithful , loyal and honest one . So does my thug has whut it takes to be the one , who tells it all ?

Tripping over the love and pain

2010-02-26T20:24:00.000-08:00

Thought of switching to Tumblr or Onsugar ,getting bored of Blogspot olways being a bitch.

Tolong Blogspot jangan carik kebencian! Bleah~ Suggestions people? Yesterday met the parents of a friend of mine via webcam. Supporting parents you got there huh! So stop complaining. And oh ya! Ive learn sign laguage!!! Its saturday ,will be a boring one i guess. Missing bf ,thats an important information okay! xo.

If the phrase"TRUE LOVE"is true, we will live together forever.

2010-02-26T04:51:00.000-08:00

Only 2hours of sleep ,drank for a friend's burfday mini celebration
Totally forgets that i have maths homework
Still cant solve even one fcuking problem sum
Need contact lens/new specs ,having hard time trying to copy notes from the whiteboard which immidiately make me loses mood to study
L4D2. Kill zombies ,kill zombies with my schmates. Still learning .. monday on?!
Today i finally say ,"Aku nk try quit merokok uh!" hehe. No promises tho
Twitter is addictive ,especially mobile twitting! {o.o"}
And its my first time saw "baby" talks to his sally. hehe!

Happy now ,blablabla

2010-02-25T00:00:00.000-08:00

First i think my blog looks perfectly fine. It suppose to look like *above* the font the size. If not ,theres must be something wrong with you .. hehe. Jk. Second. Changed my blogsong (fyi the songs has nothing to do with my life) Third. Ive replied tags.

You and i ,you and i

2010-02-24T22:20:00.000-08:00

Im not the brightest crayon in the box ,but i sure do know i make you one happy person. Imy

Funny conversation

2010-02-24T00:00:00.000-08:00

Hi kerraline ,if you are reading this. This is the drawing i sent to ihsan. hahhaha! fat twin! i know after seeing this you gonna say "puki la pet" then beat me kn? LAI~

click to enlarge ,dewi siao!

For now its -- giving the best

2010-02-21T07:04:00.000-08:00

Gonna be a goodgood night

2010-02-20T03:30:00.000-08:00

Second day with my babygirls :)
HAPPY BURFDAY MAN TEDDY! tonight gonna be a goodgood night.

Brb babies

2010-02-19T01:40:00.000-08:00

Ill be away for three days two night. Yayah comb Man Teddy Chalet :D

love you ekal rascal always

Im the only witness of life

2010-02-18T00:00:00.000-08:00

Someone asked me ,"But why?"

"You dont even know him!" I shout.

Forever? Only dreamers and romantics. I am one

2010-02-17T03:37:00.000-08:00

Happy life doesnt come easy baby.

Rinduu You!

2010-02-17T02:56:00.000-08:00

some of saturday overdue pictures. love dewisutra cb pork and izzati step sweet rabak with bf girl.

I miss this fat ass bitch of mine! Very okay?! I wanna fcuk you when we meet. Soon~

I love kerraline ,she's my oreo twinny. I dont miss her ,cause i mitting her a few mintues more! :) Tau camera quality suck! fcuk manto's fone.

Of course i miss my miang(s) girlfriends! Except for yayah ,still in contact with her. Where are you girls?

My daily dosage. My happy pills. I lovee themmm too. I hate fyda ,because she the happiest girl alive today. Cemburu yknw.

Obviously ,i rinduu my very vain boyfriend! Rinduuu i tk culit?! I rinduuu you *hugggiesss

I wanna be a blonde bitch living in new york

2010-02-16T08:55:00.000-08:00

Hi sexy. Today i feel so miskin! Thanks to CNY still most of the shop are closed ,out cooking gas (idk what's its call) So mama and me cant cook! So today me and mama were very creative we used microwave to cook scramble eggs ,canned food and sardines. I know it sound fcuk ,and really the egg so the e-e-w!

Thats for breakfast ,as for dinner i cooked maggi using microwave too! fcuk. I hate today's food.

As planned ,group study @ Orchard. Heheee. First i was superr late ,second i got lost ,third i studied for only like only 20mins ,manage to do my mother tougue homework and 4 maths problem sums then mood h-i-l-a-n-g! nyett! Fyda was like saying "pet try pet" hahhaa ... i ignored her :P Jealous that everybody brains is working properly! KORG OTAK APE AHHHH! Fyi ,i hate maths ,maths always make me cranky and of course my head go cracking! Head to Borders since i wanna check out the price of "This Is My Story" book. But too bad the book wasnt available there. Okay wan?! you con me eh? Hmpf. Then accompanied the boys for a late supper .. home sweet home.

I love fyda extra much today! She baked me blueberry muffins^^

They are cute ,feel like throwing them up and down kick them on the floor step on them then eat them. HAHA! but too bad fyda dengki! she go and baked it a lil longer than usual till the muffins are abit hard on the outside. But overall ,i love her muffins (think dirty) hahhaha!

FML

2010-02-15T10:43:00.000-08:00

Hi. i wanna do a proper post with ol overdue pictures up ,but too bad normally after 2am my internet connection will run very slow i will have to restart every 30mins so i will loose my work. And i wont have the mood to online after that. Thats answer why sometimes ill offline without even saying goodbye. Fcuk right? I know. If i got cock and my modem have puki i fcuk it olready.

Now another fcuk ,trying to watch 200pound beauty on youtube but it load very long too! My fone batt died ,lazy to get up and charge it. Having menses and i hate it when i can feel the bloody liquid like running down to the pad! Hehe ,i know im being too open. But who cares ,i know you girls bleed too unless theres something wrong with you there! heehee.

Anw ,am going to orchard starbucks to study with my classmates tmr. I have maths homework to complete _l_ fuh ,while typing this i just remembered that i must recopy my maths notes into my exercise book! gonna do that after updating my private blog. Fyda is being a sweetheart ,she gonna bake me muffins :) wuhuu!

tagboard and overdue pictures will be updating them tmr? see how. xoxo.

Its 14th february ,marks valentine's day

2010-02-14T00:00:00.000-08:00

Happy valentine's day puppy culit! :)

"Whatever souls are made of ,his and mine are the same"

Lip sync

2010-02-12T04:24:00.000-08:00

School → Grandlink → Home

Today's maths lesson is very frustrating ,i need a maths tutor and mama say she gonna find me one by next month a private home tutor ,yay! I love you. Anw did i ever mention that my maths teacher looks cute like a gummy bear but he has a very sexy seducing voice! haha. I will secretly take his picture and post it one day. Zxzxzx! After school ,waited till 2pm for the muhammdiyah boys transport then karokaed with fyda ,just fyda only since the boys malu nk sing. Plan cock up thanks to man's officer. Fyda sang mengusung rindu ,i or us! nearly cried ,our eyes were like waterywatery .. alahai~ shhtt! Then pool-ed. Team up with hyn then izzan. Loses both game ,izzit my fault? Haha. I aint a pro okay! Zzz .. Kerraline told me she got a job ,gue jealous banget doh! Dewi cheer up baby! *hugsss

I hate my body now ,i just think im too skinny now. I dont feel good when i look at the mirror nowaday ,im scared i gonna suffer from anorexia or what :( I do think anorexia people are stupid and ugly ,i have big appetite but i doesnt seem to gain any weight i even loss a lot of weight in months ,the jeans ive been wearing now need belt to hold them up.. I wanna go doctor but confirm they will just give me stupid pills to swallow plus mama have olready bought me many vitamins. Everything is shrinking ,sometimes i do cry .. my veins are much visible now i just look like a walking stickgirl. How i wish baby is here to make me feel good ,i know he love me no matter how i will look like but deep inside i really dont feel good how?

look down shes ugly and yet shes happy? stupid

Till the morning light ..

2010-02-11T08:01:00.000-08:00

Our "angkong" on our hairy hands ,people use to tell me or mayb us we're horny cause we have stupid little hair growing. HAHA! true ke? Fyda's is of course on the right one it suppose to be a geisha holding a what? batang? haha. unsure ... korg diam

The boys brought this from their home

Fyda ,aiseyman muke taik! *candid

Fyda tktau spell pekak kapaa?!

coincidently yesterday we wore grey

Wth. Pathetic sia the brand name! hahaha

Hi baby. Today we studied science ,chemistry comb with physics in school. Lesson was boring plus the aircon was very kurang hajar ,bored + aircon = sleepy eyes and many yawns. So today me and fyda didnt really pay attention, hehe. Our so called "DM" went into the class and gave us a stern reminder not to smoke infront of the entrance or else after CNY he will call the HSA and we will be fine 200bucks. Wooo~ Today i brought my maccaroni goreng to school planed to save money but indeed i failed once more! I hate mr teh tarek ,many nice food yknw! Haish ,tmr after school playing pool with schmates ,yay! Hope the muhammadiyah boys get to join us. Eyah chatted with me asking about someone whom i busted after being with him for only 3days. HEHE^^ i know im bad. Ive got reasons to it. Funny past yeah. Other than that sweetdreams.

Thorns

2010-02-10T09:04:00.000-08:00

" Ill rather be the thorn among the roses cause i like to poke you hard and see your true colours. Rather than being a total sweetheart twenty four seven. Its just not me. So what if you are my competitor? I prefer to race. " - From the heart

Just sharing my cute drawing conversation with apek. HAHA. Aniway ,pepek is not something dirty or what its just a pet name for me from my name sepet ,petpetpek .. get it? hahaaaa. Changed blogsongs :)

Schmates i swear my scanner cant on! If i happen to lie now tmr ill be hit by a lorry .. nights xo.

Im ready for the "loose control"

2010-02-09T23:59:00.000-08:00

Sometimes i just wanna break down infront of everyone so they can see for real im not acting merely im suffering from the cruelity of reality. Internally yeah. only mama was there to see how i cry myself to sleep for this one whole month its been a major emotional knockout haish. nevermind i love you mama ,i miss you boyfriend. School was great btw ,i wear v masai today but who cares?! I own a boyfriend :)

Izzan said ,

"life's a whore who fucks us all.that's why nobody dies a virgin .carry on with your life ,if you love him -- stay."

and the inspiration

2010-02-09T06:51:00.000-08:00

Hi. Today was a slight improvement for Izzan. Forced him to bus-ed down to bedok then meet me at the phonebooth. But i think that lazy boy sleepy sgt get lost and blame me! Tak baik adik kakak maramara ,hehe! eeew! Almost late for school ,hehe^^ As said i wore slipper yaw! And today too was Mr krishnan 2nd lesson teaching Social Studies. I or mayb we hate the way he teaches us ,from one point to another without elaborating each point. For example ,1st point was Nation building okay la atleast this point he talks alot about it how singapore gain independence ,why singapore merge with malaysia etc. 2nd point was Nothern island. This to me is the fcuk part only told us Nothern island is mostly catholics and British was the protestant ... then he skips to the 3rd point which is Sri lanka. WTH! You kate you travel around the world spelling pun tk pass. Gobal ,thiland ! HAHHA. Somebody and someone in the class keep on passing love letter because somebody mara at someone. haha ,cute or what?! Oh ya! Today i cooked pasta and brought it to school konon nye nk save money but then ---- i spend it on ciggs :'( cbb. I hate today's weather. But today's afternoon nap wahh syiok ... 7pm met yayah went to the night market bought my vadai and my black methol for tmr school break ,light a fag or two share jokes then head home. Here now blogging ,arghh i think my menses are coming. Prepare for red waterfall ~ eew!

"Kakak" Fyda likes to molest me ,helppp :'( She likes to hug me ,touch my butt ,kiss me .. you imagine!

But i da revenge da ,i send her this. And shes disgusted by it ,nyettt~

"I thought you love me? Why you wanna leave me? I love you all my life!"

"I love you ,dnt leave me fyda dearest! Hahahahaha!"

To all ,this is just a joke okay? Im straight. I love my boyfriend.

I say still i stand shawty here i am

2010-02-08T07:55:00.000-08:00

Hi Sweethearts. Today i went to school with Izzan. Force myself to take the mrt ,tmr bus tau ass! Stupid boy complaining about everything! Mostly about his lovelife. Failed my compo again this time by 5points fcuk even after sme part i copied fom the net! Mr. misai lu lokek points ah bro! So unfair fyda pass. Today after school the closest gathered and we played Truth or Dare but without the dare cause no one dares too. Haha. Surprise! The outmost truth was out ,say "WOOOW!" *blushblush. Oh ya i was asked to tell the truth about my vey first impression of each one. Fyda - pervert!! Aidil - cuteee! Farhan - tk kenal sgt. Redha - Charming. Faiz - fierce. Hidayat - irratating. Hyn - friendly. Scorpio - blank. Whenn .. Izzan's turn ,i say muke slalu seleleh type. HAHAHA. Muke berubah sey member. Nyett joking je ,no hard feelings okay? :) Tmr social studies ,yey! class comb with them 'N' students. Today too i kena scolded by a teacher for wearing sleeveless ,hehe tk takot! Tmr nk break school rule wear slipper :P Bought a pink colour earpiece wuhuu matches with my pink fone! Cnt wait to show it off tmr ,big deal huh?! haha. Tmr im gonna wake up extra early and cook pasta for myself and indra to bring it to school. Mau save duet! No declare myself as a bankrupt! I still owe yayah 2bucks ,no money to pay -____-" lameee. Stay tune ,xo. Zzzz ...

This Is My Story by Kasandra Kong

2010-02-07T00:01:00.000-08:00

The book that i want ,trying to get it through online. Hope to get the best price possible

Tried Ebay ,just check today was the closing date fcukady!

The new paper article that caught my eye and immidiately felt pity for her and interested to know more ,how she endure ,how she move on .... Im getting you soon!

The less routine the more life

2010-02-07T00:00:00.000-08:00

I miss my honey bunny alooot
I want to visit you but no one will tell me how ,where and whe
Patiences
Paranoid ,bad dreams bad dreams
Mama mood swing EVERYDAY ,mcm setan masok badan -.-
I want to forget the world give me pills! Lastlast promise
School spell A-W-E-S-O-M-E
Im Mr Teh Tarek daily customer of malay donut
Friday was the boys' bad girlfriend day (HAHA)
Drinking session causes 1hour of severe headache
2 Martini, 1 Smirnoff, 1 mcdowell, 1 chacha 51
Kinna told me she is my stalker ,lol
Girls talk with kerraline twinny and yayah ,so love them!
Fyda love my butt ,she da mcm pervert
Dengdeng burger .sooodap!
New handphone ,not cybershot but its pink!
Broke promise to not eat or crave anything
Fyda tried but still fail to save money because of me
Classmates think im retarded ,the way i hold my pen and write
New name ,Aisyah Jalevina
Teacher told us attendance is compulsary -- But they sendiri tk attend sucka!
Sheesha-ed with crazy friend
Camwhoreeee
Bad service from mosc cafe ,fcuk the aircon
"I suka you" -- inside jokeee
They advise me to grow fatter ,IM TRYINGGGG
I kembang many time yknw hehe^^
They gamble ,im ladyluck
Homework not yet done ,Topic ; power
Poor Nadia Fazlini ,public should respect her privacy
My black pepper immitation lobster meat ,kangkong and oyster mushroom heaven!
Mama is currently throwing things across the room ,ignoring youuu!
Daily tomyum soup with chili padi for a kick
Love vegetable now
Oh ya izzan tougue so long cant imagine that licking my pussy ,nyett disgusting
Man teddy comb Yayah's burfday chalet
Have not meet dewi and lina for so long ,lina longer
I wanna buy an oversize tee and more long sleeve class can be very cold aircon kurang hajar
Blogskin codes still not "repair"
Central carrotcake so salty
Owe yayah 2bucks -- REMINDER
Why fiqo wont tell us?
Everyday after school cant wait to get home and dance naked ,he weather can be very humid
Walk home instead of hailing a cab ,improvement
Sorry shinee ,gua tkde skill ah nk kidnap lu. Gua tkde duet nk amek diploma mencuri
Bad jeans day ,bad eyeliner day ,bad hair day ,bad tummy day ...
Ahtan ,Ahting ,Ahtong
Promise to upload picture latest by next sat
Cant wait for tmr
Lost my eyebrow stud
After months not wearing my smiley stud tried piercing it back surprisingly buley!
I love twitter i think micro blogging is awesome i can blog from wherever i am
Everlast shoes dont have my size the sale person ask me to look at the kids corner fcukker
Hate my sticklike body --blame the junks freakooo
Blisterssss
Nude coloured nails are love
Wants french manicure
Wanna dye my haer jet black
Gotto save money for plans
I want private maths tuition
I need spec ,dnt want cntact lens
Dont ever borrow indra my earplug anymore after what happen to my motorola headset
Candy colour earplug please

I know im weird. Mr Muru, my secondary school form teacher once scolded me because of the way i hold my pen. Wth! I cant change it stupid -___-

Knock out

2010-02-05T03:33:00.000-08:00

"Love doesn't hide. It stays and fights. It goes the distance, that's why love is so strong. So it can carry you all the way home" -- i miss you

My codes (navigation) is having some problem ,"repairing it soon" bye going drinking

Im bold

2010-02-04T00:00:00.000-08:00

Hi. I wont be updating my blog as often as i use to do. Must try avoid my baby lappy to mange my sleeping pattern. School has been fun with new friends -- mind you mostly guys not much girls there. Ehemehem ,no flirting eyes always on my books. Classes has been great so far ,only for the first day krishnan scolded me and fyda for talking and late for his class. First impression suda rabak ,nyett~ After school ,headed to tamp's starbuck fyda sucha darling treat me LAVACAKE. (dewi jealous) We learnt our lesson ,not to be greedy kn fyda. Lavacake is supposed to be shared ,try eat it alone ... ive warn you. Jangan jadi mcm si kera(s) yaw! hahha. Then i crave for pasta ,so ngomelngomel to fyda ... she pon fall for my cravings .. she had creamy chicken and for me prawn anglio! wee... 2nd day ,after school slack with the boys. Kak aisyah asked us to join the max-out student for a indon-culture workhop or something ,kind of bored but the boys make a hell lot of fun. Chillchill ,the boys went back. Me ,fyda and hyn was planning to STRAIGHT go home butttt .... i saw dengdeng house or smething ... nk dengdeng pulak nyettt! fyda ... pun join. hyn pun. *tunjok pantat. For today? I bought dengdeng burger yaw! Acc im lazy to type ,just typing whatever fuck in my head now.

Im tired dont bother to comment about this post. sepet wanna kick ass

Ceh ,tagged ekal pun nk fana! 369 friends ,nice one!

Tag replies ,

Guest - ohh ... its sogoe script.

Fiqo - thanks broooo ,hahaa!

yayat stupid - thanks.

guest - yup ,still available. any detail add me at msn. ( sepet-cho@hotmail.com)

Efa - thanks bloghopper.

mary - self rebond.

Zirah ♥ - yes it is dear.

♥eyakhairiah - hehe. wah big compliment eh. gees. yeah ,one day okay.

guest - jbs

Avid reader - yeah ,im strong okay ill try.

passerby (: - thanks happy person

FYDA - GO DIE! FATASS

Adieqpampered - HEHE. thanks see ya around

yayah - ohh sorry la brother!

omg - yup i do have yellow teeth ,im a smoker and i have sensitive teeth yaw! it bleed often. I do brush.

Adeleeyana - you yg same primary school with me izzit? hehe.

bye nk sleep

7th.

2010-02-03T15:06:00.000-08:00

Happy 7th my dear ,seem new yet gone through alot as a couple.

I love you and always will do. Distance is killing me. I miss you ,xxoo.

Heartache Heartache

2010-02-01T01:26:00.000-08:00

School -> Tamp one -> Lava cake -> Pastamania -> Cotton on -> Topshop -> Sasa -> Homey

had one long fantastic super greedy kenyang day accompanied by Fyda fatass ,huhu^^ shagged. Indra being a sweetheart let me blog and check my tagboard for 10mins only. Enough olready tired ,off to bed! I love my new nail colour pinky red ... ill reply my tagboard tonight (if i free) And ill re-edit this post yaw!

xoxo ,today mark a year of knowing you loveya imy

Dear you ,

2010-01-31T13:04:00.000-08:00

Morning boyfriend ,welcome february! Am starting school today ,excited? Pretty much.

Btw its 456am ,awaken by stupid fonecall from apat (ekal's neighbour) must force myself to bed by 530. If tk fyda lu standby ah bro. Missing secondary life ,especially my lovely gfs. Vday on? Missing bf too of course! School rule cb must wear shoe ,i hate shoe and never was a fan of them. Alalala. Am wearing shoe for the first week only ,first impression. End of the month mayb putting on haer extentions ,mama treat! A big MAYYY to the BE! maybe! and so gonna dye my haer jet black~ AND TODAY GETTING MY LAAVAA CAKE DOH! fyda treat eh? ^^ i wanna buy vans pumps by tmr ,prayhard ade my size... Zzzz

soon privating my blog ,mayb olso... say hello jbs!

Spell laaavaaa

2010-01-30T22:02:00.000-08:00

Testing my patience eh you ,

http://www.5min.com/Video/How-to-Make-Chocolate-Lava-Cakes-38372159

A miserable existence

2010-01-30T10:27:00.000-08:00

Some evil creatures makes me feel wretchedly unhappy ,uneasy ,uncomfortable and inadequately incomplete

much misses -- love ,if you were here you would have witness them in action and today i found out mama have been keeping a picture of me and boyfriend in her purse ol along. No wonder ive been searching for that neoprint which was always stuck to my fridge door! Tk kn mama miss my boyfriend too -.-"

I am SASHA FIERCE

2010-01-29T16:49:00.000-08:00

I do the very best I know how, the very best I can, and I mean to keep on doing so until the end --- its not my fault i love you this much its yours

Always talking about what you got

2010-01-29T14:36:00.000-08:00

Good morning ,just reached home. Dear mama is out to buy me breakfast. Loveya! Have to wake indra up at 720. Let me start off with yesterday ,dewi came by my house. Dewi said "Pet kao da besar bukak kedai rambot sendiri suda". Ah yela pandai eh kao ,nanti ade je aku bukak salon aku sendiri ade je muke kao every month 3 kali datang nk tukatuka hairstyle for free! Aku nk makan ape gitu nanti. Dewidewi~
After that accompany dewi to callow's crib. His mum was friendly ,ceh da jadi member gossip sey kite. HAHA. Talktalk till 10pm pizzahut punda close ,so tk dpt eat my lava cake. Haish again! Done with yesterday ,today was my orientation. New friends? HAHAHA. fyda kao tau sape kn yg choosen one. HAHAHA. Went karokae abit cock up uh today. Never sleep for a day so i abit blur ,bad eyeliner day what more? Fyda lost her money. Sooo ... Monday? Lava cake pah? Went home slept till 11+ ,terpaitao dewi agaen. Kesian si tua tuh haha. Around 12am went out meet kerraline and friends ,movie marathon. Watched ,American pie -- book of love and fired up. For sex lovers ,you will enjoy it. *wink* HAHA. Sometimes i hate dewi cause she will post the picture that i hate. She cb! But still i love her. Kerraline now my tangkes AHTAN! I miss my girls especially lina ,14feb harap menjadi yer. What a meesy post ,so what. Bye ,love you my blogsongs remind me of you (mungkin -anuar zain)

zealously intensifying emotions

2010-01-27T00:02:00.000-08:00

Life isn't all haha hehe

I feel different. i couldnt seem to control my emotions lately. i cry on little matters . call me weak ,i am
Keep reminding myself im a fighter ,a fighter to get hold of myself against this devastating feeling .. fcuk you

Giving up? NEVER.

2010-01-27T00:00:00.000-08:00

Im so in love with my Twitter page !

Hi baby! Today supposingly ive planned to meet dewikidolly at tamp since i want to try out lava cake at starbuck which my dear tagger had recommend me. But then sorry la wiwi i terpaitao ,tdu mati! Hee. Felt so fuck up mintk ampun bykbyk to her. --- im lying Hehe. Tmr meeting her kn? No promises la ,sleeping pattern siak wei. So i wake up round 7+/8 received a txt msg from kerraline ,ajak lepak at bedok. So yeah maen angin jap then dragged myself to the toilet ... blablabla. Overall woundnt rate today as great mayb just okay. Mostly we talked about school ,i asked them whether O level is a good choice for me ,kerraline say not to worry as long as i pays attention in class and tk influence by friends. I dont really know if im goeng in the right path hopefully i am. 29th orientation kind of excited ,school gonna start soon. Suppose to be happy or not? hee. Whatever la sepet steady bohpipi go with the flow aje.

Im very angry and felt so busted by some people why they still tend to hide things from me. Like hello im not any stranger to him and i deserve to know. For whatever reasons you have installed for this ,i just wanna say whatever gonna happen in future im ready and ill stand by my beau. Ill lead myself through by myself as i know on every end of a dark tunnel theres gonna be light waeting for me. Call me miss independent! Hehe. Sepet no time mau lembeklembek. Through these dark days i realise bf has great friends all along ,tell the truth ive once hated them. No offence. But now ,I can see vividly who is the ones truely care for him. Thanks guys and man ekal youre lucky. I hope you too will soon discover it yourself
--- im still here holding on. xo ,I miss you. Does that information ring a bell? Any bell? ...

River island shades ,Anybody?

2010-01-26T00:00:00.000-08:00

Hi morning baby! Its 11 in the morning still not asleep yet. Sleeping pattern sucks like agaen. Wootwoot!

To begin today's day ,ive deleted my tagged! 157 friend request ,accepted some. Viewview hot guys ,ceh joking. Teros delete la! hee. Sorry guys semangat seminute aje. nyett~ People had been asking pet buat facebook. But Neh. So active at boyfriend's tagged ,soon to be shared account? See how. But the best thing is i have full control of his tagged! hehoheho ^^ currently waiting for indra to come home kakak nk waffle choco! i love you brother tho you looks ugly with that orbit haer cut now. shht today no plan. ill re-edit this post later ..

yey. tmr meeting dewi. heading to cottage pies to get my tiramisu and mini cream puff. yum!
back up plan ,tamp starbucks cnt waet to dig in! --- i miss bf

River island shades

usual price $50. Price tag are still attach (i guess)

Letting off at $35 each. Good deal yah! Selling for a friend. Condition - 10/10. Never used before.

Anybody? Interested tag me honey. xoxo.

Rumors said they are breaking up. Their children will live full time in custody of angelina. But they will share their fortune and custody of children equally. The sex was good ,sources said they could spent up to 18-20hours in bed. But sex itself is not enough for this relationship. Aiyaya. They are perfect ,i hope those rumours are made up. I love seeing them together ... xoxo

More than you ever know ,

2010-01-25T13:00:00.000-08:00

midnight craving. oreo cheese cake purposely took the cute mini version of it ,so cute and lava cake has never tried it before but it look yummy seen it on tv gonna have you soon baby! and ya theres this particular day few months back ,i was like craving for oreo cheese cake badly till wanna cry haha its normal for me to cry if i crave for smething. hee. then i was like calling-calling boyfriend mengadu bisingbising about cheesecake ... then of course la boyfriend pampers me too much he blanja me like straight away .. yes ,im very manja you know -.-"

Little by little one walks far

2010-01-25T03:21:00.001-08:00

Mama buy kn me 8days & Hot magazine ^^ Happy! Yayayay. So spent my day sleeping ,reading and chatting. Ive always love to read magazine but not books. But theres this particular book called ,This Is My Story by Kassandra kong (if im not mistaken) really interest me. So im gonna get it! Soon .. Somebody give suggestion to get it from borders but idk where is borders! -.- haha. k la nevermind.
Oh ya ,i too read newspaper okay!!! alamak you people. The other day fiqo said "Sejak bile kao start bace newspaper?!" I was like " -____- wth. dari dulu sia fiq! " So ya ,hell ya. Im missing my hubby. 29th orientation tau b. Kate nk fetch me on my first day of school but ya ... now ... k da getting emotional pulak. aiyaya! Somebody who knows me well said ,ya strong pun strong ,in the end cry yourself to sleep. Haish ,that person knew me too well i guess. Da tau diam. Remembrance ~

Colour me free

2010-01-24T13:13:00.000-08:00

I deserve to be happy too.Pictures - skatepark & ecp. with my happy friends. had fun with them. funny people ,amazing people.dewi slept over my house yesterday ,did self rebonding to her hair. kind of menjadi. met fiqo ,manto paitao. i hate you. fiqo ,talk crap with us. thanks fiqo. i love my gf kerraline and dewi like alot. I miss lina and the others too. Skype with someone yeah did miss you but neh ... forget about it. Tag replies below.

taggers whom asked to be link yeah done!

dayah ; thanks beb.

guest ; 149 / weight not sure. why?

passerby ; wow. youre one nice person. i didnt know i will inspire anyone. aniways thanks. dont mind to tag me with youre name next time.

FYDA ; dewi say NO. some people just take advantage and spam her. And recently someone used her picture to make an imesh account. TAKE NOTE ; dewisutra never own an imesh acc! stalker!
manto ; you go die ~
FYDA ; yes! he is!
Guest ; who are you? why tk ask at msn aje?
Guest ; yeah thanks whoever you are :)
AimanJizzHeart ; Hi handsome!
Louisa Nicolette ; Hi pretty! yeah thanks. you know? if tau shh. hmm ... lastlong aniway.

Beginnings are always messy

2010-01-23T10:50:00.000-08:00

Hi paris and nicole ,i love you both! i dont care what paparazzi or the world gotto say bout you go die with them!
sincerely what makes me be one of your fans is the way you guys handle those harsh first impression or gossips.
Sex videos scandal ,bitching around and crazy party girls night put it aside.
Its really hard to see you girls without smiles on your face.
I just wish i was one of you ,happy ,money ,love ,great family.-minus those cameras and reporters following me.
xoxo ,gotto doze off now. time check ,843am.
Ill do a proper post tonight ,i miss bf "Hi awak sihat tk disana sayang? ILY"
MANTO SIBEH PAITAO-ER! ( ive made a new name for you)

Sombody wake me I'm dreaming

2010-01-22T00:30:00.000-08:00

TUPAC SHAKUR ;

“I know it seems hard sometimes but remember one thing.
Through every dark night, theres a bright day after that.
So no matter how hard it get, stick your chest out, keep ya head up.... and handle it.” “My mama always used to tell me: 'If you can't find somethin' to live for, you best find somethin' to die for.”
“So complicated to escape fate. And you can never understand til' we trade places”

It just kills

2010-01-22T00:02:00.000-08:00

oh. i miss those baby fats. now im super skinny walking stickgirl. atleast i used to have a double chin
blame those junks stupid. i wanna start trying to live a healthy lifestyle but soon after i have enough shaking my head off the rock fvck what myob i just love my pills tempting .. MAJOR PROB $$$ and btw yes thats wan belo's powerpuff girl towel. picture dated 060609 history repeats itself ... imy bf

new blog songs ,new imesh acc add me

Oh aisyah - Ekal rascal

2010-01-22T00:00:00.000-08:00

Di malam gelap gelita terbayang wajahmu sayang ,

mencari entah dimana kini kao tiada ....

Dear God - Avenged Sevenfold

2010-01-21T00:01:00.000-08:00

Me and Ekal in ten years time! HAHA. i know they dnt even look like us. Just an illustration kn bdu ,nyett~ Rambut nye je maen peranan. Boyfriend with ash brown or ash grey i meltzxz... golekgolek hentak kepale at tembok! .... wutwut! I want victoria style beckham cut jet black please after the long sassy curl with some two tone highlights. xxoo ,sepet bored! Pray for your health dear.

Expect nothing ,live frugally on surprise

2010-01-20T13:45:00.001-08:00

Overdue pictures are up ,enjoy. But pictures are not in order. Heehee. Linkage and archieve are up too. Tag me to be link. Tried widgetbox.com but i prefer this one.

*Refresh page if nothing tend to appear below.

urgh ,my face felt so oily today. why?

Really great people make you feel that you, too, can become great

2010-01-19T00:01:00.000-08:00

More than you ever know. I love my mama and i love you too boyfriend. My mama is one hell of a strong woman ,she hides her tears she hides her sorrows. Sometimes its funny how i thought she has no feelings kinda woman but i know shes suffering. She made great sarcrifieses to see the best of me sometimes i do dissapoint her but i know one day ill sure make my mama proud. Insyallah. Ask how? Imma dreamer i have dreams. Im olways the black sheep of the family but that didnt stop her from having faith in me. Shes a trust faith pixie. Few days back i heard sobbing i peaked through the slight opening of the door there she was crying. How i wish i was brave enough to hug her and wipe of her tears tell her everything gonna be olright and just say a simple ily. Boyfriend once hug me tightly while i cried In his arms ,i just need one now ily you both like for real. See now shes cracking some jokes to cheer me up despite some rough days back aiyaya. Im just lucky

Being happy doesnt mean that everything is perfect

2010-01-19T00:00:00.000-08:00

I found myself waking up in tears. I think i sobbed too loud till i woke mama up. I cnt help it. Mama did comfort me yes i did calm down only for awhile but then i teared down more when mama say he sure is missing me right now. Me too tau dear. Time check ,411am. If the dreams are for real im willing to wake up everyday in tears just to see you agaen much misses

Him that I love, I wish to be free -- even from me.

2010-01-18T02:15:00.000-08:00

Some call it madness ,but I call it love.

Perpisahan ini hanya sementara sahaja ,kn ?

2010-01-17T12:06:00.000-08:00

I hope youre sleeping peacefully by now dear. Much misses ,xo.

Where there is great love there are always miracles.

2010-01-17T01:54:00.000-08:00

Hi baby! What a beautiful evening.

First ,ill never try to skate agaen just because i suck on my very first try.

Second ,skatepark are usually filled with hulks (some are hot) so for a begginner girl like me i dont fit in.

Third ,i have this phobia of falling right on my butt. I have some back problems you see. Its abit senget.

Fourth ,i hate wearing shoes ,sneakers or whatever. Pumps? Okok baby. For heels? Im trying.

So thats the end of sepet's skating lessons. HAHAHA.

Love is fire. But whether its gonna warm your heart or burn your house down you can never tell. Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart. And try to love the questions themselves
Im not forgetting you and who i am. I miss you and i know you too

Sk8

2010-01-16T00:00:00.000-08:00

Yesterday a night out with my old troublemakers ,vivo >> sheesha >> home
I love my friends although they kind of irratating sometimes. Many pictures acc ,ill upload them once i know how to import pictures to web. Heehee. Today i gonna try skate for the very ferst time :) hiphiphoorayy!! But i dont have the proper shoes so im wearing slipper ,like wth pet! hahaha. I wanna learn lan gaming so i can play it with game freak ,fyda! hahaha. Kerraline say wanna teach me how to kill zombies ,tk pun. Hmpff. I sound so boyish but who cares my boyfriend love me the way i am cause im sapau ! *wide smile. Mama and indra went to KL today as for ayah idc! So im missy lonely at home waiting for the boys to call me up. Tell the truth im late olready. Hehe. See this is my girlish part~ wee gtg gang!
I saw ekal in my dreams agaen ,lassey miss her sexyboy badly yknw

Fine hopes

2010-01-15T01:41:00.000-08:00

Soon ...

Parts and parcels

2010-01-15T00:00:00.000-08:00

I've made all my money on my own without my family and I work very hard, ... Just listening to my father . . . So just basically following that and following my heart.

-paris hilton

I don't mind living in a man's world as long as I can be a woman in it.

-marilyn monroe
totally agrees with her.

I swear, I would say my prayers at night hoping that I would stop developing.

-kim kardashian

mine is the total opp.

I would like to stop worrying so much, because I worry all the time. And to learn how to be happier, just in general. I have to learn to take things not so seriously. And to stop biting my nails!

-britney spears

It's difficult because you never know what people's intentions are, and I think a lot of girls have become my friend for the wrong reasons and used me.

-paris hilton

OH YA ,29th ORIENTATION ^^

The climb - miley cyrus

2010-01-14T11:41:00.000-08:00

Camera quality kind of suck ,i wanna get a new phone! New month ,the following month? Camera's mmc fcuking giving me problems. Whatever la. Hmm ,before that i wanna get haer extentions cause now my haer is short blame my stupid haer experiment. I wanna get curlywirrl kind of extentions. Sarahsayang recommended me a place. But i must waet for mama to settle things first. Patience okay pet! Time check ,its 315am. Sleepy ,ya. But i cant stop starring at my boyfriend's picture. Not obessesing la! Just miss him. Lucky the smell on his hoodies still strong! Misses those warm hugs ,those wet kisses ,those charming smile and those irratating jokes of his. I can only scribble out my feelings on pieces of papers ,i have v good friends that have good listening ears. But i need more ,i need him la to be exact. Today i went out to meet my friends just like old times but still i dnt feel happy. Yah ,they are a bunch of monkeys whom never fail to make me laugh. But i need more ... haha. Understand? I guess i need some fresh air ,get drunk or fcuking shake off my head. Surely it will only be a tempolary feeling yknw. Then im back here suffocating. I wanna shout i wanna run i wanna fcuking kidnap him! A whole lot stories i wanna share ,i just cant waet for our next meet. Come home soon ,imy badly. If this is worth wanting desiring for ,heads up high im coming

I can almost see it.

That dream I'm dreaming, but

There's a voice inside my head saying

You'll never reach it

Every step I'm takin'

Every move I make

Feels lost with no direction,

My faith is shakin'

But I gotta keep tryin'

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down, but

No I'm not breaking

I may not know it, but

These are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most

I've just gotta keep goin', and

I gotta be strong

Just keep pushing on, but

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side

It's the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side

It's the climb

Keep on movin'

Keep climbin'

Keep faith baby

It's all about, it's all about

The climb

Its not my fault i love you this much ,its yours

2010-01-14T00:00:00.000-08:00

and i love hardcore shaking

Im olways lascoste princess but im olways out of cash

2010-01-13T09:08:00.000-08:00

Somehow my title do rhyme. HAHA ^^ On second thought tk! hee.

Aniway ,Hello buddies. Dewi been sucha sweetheart today ,eventhough we met for like 45mins and after that i need to rush down to meet mama. Time spend well talking to her ,its been so long yknw. Hmm. I miss my beng kong too! Hee. Mana kamu ,mana kamu? Not forgetting lina ,kerraline ,kaseh ,yayah ,muny ,jannah ,ifa too. Aniway ,Fyda been a great layan kan partner. I ask her to download stupid stuff she so selenge follow atlast we both tktau nk buat ape. Hahaha. I suke you. As for zirah my new friend ,i cant waet to meet her! *winkzx! Mayb i should loosen up abit yknw ,things been hitting pretty hard on me. So A BIG MAYB! next week mayb i should carry on with my plan to go drinking with my lacostes! Rindurindu ,im planning to find some solid cash $$$ so i can bukak botol but yayat insisted that he wanna bukak botol since im his princess. Hmm. So gini ,i bukak he bukak both bukak both drink both drunk. How? Set? Tapi should i? Bf sure tk suke ,but hey ive been sucking stuck up at home ol alone ,lost at times. Hmm ,ill shall reconsider it yer dear?

I love myself and i love ekal equally. Gossips sure ... coming

Selfless

2010-01-13T00:00:00.000-08:00

I regretted running for the bus as for if i knew i just missed the last kiss

Chicken macnugget la all this

2010-01-12T00:00:00.000-08:00

Drawn on yayah's school uni. HAHAHAHA! whatever sia pet.

Goodmorning. Currently munching on lobster cracker ,muhammad dewisutra teach me how to eat this. I miss you man! New tagboard ,tag me tag me la happy peoples! Ill ensure this one will be alive since the old chatango of mine been like so deadddd -___-'' haha. Ive even put the link to my old tagboard ,sayang uh nk delete. Hee. I miss boyfriend ,days without him been so scary. Unknown humanbeings been knocking on my door ,alone at home too scared to open it up. Fiqo is currently my 24/7 listener. Idk how long he can last cnfirm his ear will be karat soon. HAHA!
FOR ALL I CARE I MISS HAIKAL BADLY!!!

Ill be right here

2010-01-11T00:00:00.000-08:00

Hmm. Much misses. My lips are dry and i dont feel complete soon tonight it will be the 5th night

Not now

2010-01-10T08:18:00.000-08:00

Theres this one friend of mine. (Name ,confidential) Im surprise ,She a month plus pregnant. Im worried for her. Hmm. Babe ,i hope you will make the right choice whether to keep it or not. Your mama have high hopes on you and theres along way to go. Sayang memang uh ,in future dade stable job can buat many babies kn? Satu team bola olso can. All the best olright. Im olways here ,meet up soon. XO.

Coldest nights

2010-01-10T00:00:00.000-08:00

922pm. Currently ,speechless and has no feelings. 4 nights in a row only the (oh-so-cute) smell on baby's hoodies make a good "companion" idk why ,but this nights are constantly v cold plusminus without those bearhugs. Having a slight flu. (EH?) Mayb im just making things hard for me ,but its hard to keep still tauuu

favourite joke of the day , "punat aku ketawe!!" -fiqo. Hahaha!

.............................................................................................................

11am - Having trouble breathing. SCARYYYY

Define hope

2010-01-09T17:02:00.000-08:00

Highly on hopes. Even if i fall right on my face. Ill pull up my socks and keep running....
This is a promise to myself
It would be sheer lunancy to give up now

Reasons

2010-01-08T15:37:00.000-08:00

Hi. For whatever reasons ive deleted some of my previous post. Dont ask why. And hell ya ,im transferring to Jamiyah bussiness school. Full time 'O' level. Can go school with Fyda *winkwink! Everyone pretty nice to me. And im lucky that i can get along quite well with boyfriend's friends. Although sometime they tend to bully me! But they do make me feels better. Fiqo can layan my merepek and ya i woke him up this morning! Hahaaa. Cant wait to meet boyfriend to tell him that fiqo has a new bestfriend! Haha. So kenz sey fiq. Hehe. Joking la. Some news some updates are out ,prayhard heads up high. I dont care if people may think im not a good gf of ekal's. But people ,sorry to say you dont witness everything ,Simple.

Countdown pictures ,megabites too big. Atlast found picasa useful
@ B.b3 pub ,if im not wrong

xxoo ,much misses

I was recalled

2010-01-07T07:56:00.000-08:00

My biggest fear have yet to come. My boyfriend was my best bestfriend.

Now people are hiding the truth from me. Im ready .. tell me. I know we are going in circle ,haish.
B ,why so stubborn! Kn skrg we have to suffer. I guess tonight ill be crying myself to sleep

Dont ever do that again!

2010-01-06T00:01:00.000-08:00

Its 3am ,im wide awake. Fcuking bored. Till im friendster-ing. Dusty sia my friendster ..

One good thing about not deleting fs ,getto browse through some old mates that we had lost contact with.

It really freaks me out ,heart beating so fast vvv fast indeed ,but eventually i found its only a false alarm! Lucky. Everytime hp vibrates feels like as in ,prepare .....

1) Drawing of me kicking zize. 2) Dear zizie cb drawing of me.

Lobang hidong important !

I am one of the people who love the why of things

2010-01-06T00:00:00.000-08:00

Morning! Changed my blogskin just because previous one had some trouble embed song on it. Hee.

New blogskin ,new blogsong. Previous blog song -Summer Love. 3rd on my new playlist. HAHA. Like finally i reply tags! Sorry la lmbt. Lazy~ Currently doing nothing beside blogging. Just waeting for love to wake up! Craving for burger ramly ,but most of the time the queue was like 5m! Ceh fake. Super long ah ,and stuffy. So cant be bothered. What morre eh should i blog about ? Sucha mundane morning. Kind of excited for new enviroment ,i mean new sch. Just worries me ,i cant get along with my new friends or what ... hmm. But boyfriend olways been a great listener so he did give me many good advise ,which really make me feels better. Im so lucky yknw! Theres such saying as my boyfriend ,my bestfriend. I agree! 100%!! Soon ,like after my haer da reduce damage ,i wanna dye it black. USING HENNA! (HAHA)Then redye it a two-tone shade. Mama nk belanje! Next year ill be 18 ,mama say she wants me to take car license and if i pass mama wanna buy me a car. But im nt quite sure i wanna learn to drive a car or bike. I prefer taking public transport ,which is more safe! wee. Even when boyfriend say he wanna have a bike ,i was like 0-K-A-Y. Mesti kasi support ,walaupun hati berat. Simply because takot accident! *touchwood.
I miss my girlfriends ,lina ,oreo twinny ,yayah ,zilla ,dewi ,irene ,kaseh ,ifa ,jannah ,muny ,teeqah.
HI NEW FRIEND! *wave. Glamour meow. "I jealous you dpt the course!" hahaha.
I miss clubbing and karokae too ..... Tsk.
Diam ah korg ,hahaaaa.

I absolute love this quote.

I am neither especially clever nor especially gifted. I am only very, very curious.

- Albert Einstein